I've been back for almost 2 weeks now... and this meant that i've got only a week left here in Sin. The future seems rather uncertain from where i am right now... Uni days would soon be over in a couple of months.

I haven't been spending much time home with my parents.. this of which is something that i am ashame of. I do hope that we'll be able to spend a couple of meals together before i fly back again... all four of us. But what made me really glad was the relationship between my sis and i. I'm really thankful that the time that we've been apart bonded us closer then ever before.. (though the melb trip was pretty rough). and thankful for the mum and dad that loves us so much.

it seems to me that my priority now is to finish my degree, then find a job. but to go from one phase to another requires lots of work to be done. hold on, where does relationship comes in then. From what i can see, you are reluctant to give me any hope and promise. i can see why.. it's for my own good. I so wanna thank you but on the other hand, i so wanna confront you and ask you to stop being the practical one. But that would only show how witful i am. Only time can tell now... and all i ever wish for now... is that you'll be able to take the flyer with me before i leave...

Yea.. i know it's wrong and absurd... but i'm...

missing your presence... missing you. It's not so much so that it aches, but an emptiness that would rather not go away... there isn't a common thing that we share, nor a common topic that we can hold.. but the presence alone made it real and the sharing made it all comfortable.  But i'm afraid to see you again. cause it just adds on at the back of my mind. Perhaps... It's best that things be kept simple.. and contacts at minimal. As time goes by, and life gets busy, things will get better and things will get seemingly normal. Though an assumption...  it is kept real...

The semester has ended and lots of people have gone back home or are goin back. Thinking back how everything was a rush back bout 4 months ago... and now, it has all come to an end. Time flies aye...

I've got to start getting myself into the momentum now... i'm ashame to say that i've been pretty slack for the past week..

The guitarist boarded a plane back to sin this afternoon... and there won't be any music sharing till perhaps march next year... and that's such a long time... i confess.... i enjoyed the company, the music and the singing. and i'm gonna miss those times.

sometimes, i wish i could say this out to him. but on the other hand, i'm afraid that if i did, it might spoil the friendship and thinking otherwise, keep a distance from yours sincerely..

I've been feeling rather cranky for the past week though. And thinking bout the future... Where am i gonna head towards and how.. I was bothered over planning the itinerary to mel, misplacing my driving license which i so desperately needed to drive later on in mel, fustrated over the tuning of my guitar, been spending too much money, getting my dad to get the air tickets. All of these are small little things that i lost my patience on and i'm ashame to say that once again. i just wanna get onto the plane and fly back to sin. but there's 2 more months before that.

Sometimes, it's really amusing how things work themselves out. just when i thought i'll never be able to find my driving license, i found it! it's slotted in a folder together with my certs. and just when i was getting all cranked up with the tuning, eileen suprised me with a tuner! hahaha. and it works so well. =)

and that boy let me drove once from sunnybanks back home. Drove 10km above 100km limit he complained, drove 10 km below 60 limit he also complained (shadap). and one more thing, when we had lunch before sending glenn off to the airport, he had some spicey soupy pork stuff.. when he look up after finishing his food, his face was flooded with perspiration. it's drenced i swear. lol. i was shocked and thought what was that all about man. well, he's going back too next week.. which means... we get to use his car! ahahaha. wad? you thought i'll say we'll miss him? hahahaha. oppss.

alright. nite all. =)